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2009-11-30T13:05:00.001+08:00

holidays are a bore nowadays.

man still seeking for a job......and guitar course!

can't wait for new moon on the 4th! wootsss

JACOB BLACK LOVES.

i feel depressed.

2009-11-24T11:27:00.002+08:00

heyho!

so grad nite was yesterday.......had lotsa fun!

so everyone was basically snapping pics with everyone else......(me too)

but the sad thing is i realised that i miss everyone so badly in the end.

all the times in 4e6.......all the togetherness...craziness..laughter.

a 2 years had flown so fast.
but it will be cherished :)

so laughed like crazy last night.....talk and talk like nobody's business..

SHIQAH! I MISS TALKING TO YOU MY PARTNER!LOOONG TIME NO TALK!

we've not spend much time together since O's began.......

WHO CARES! WE ARE STILL 4E6 FAMILY!

so i'm now talikng to bibi about boxers......i wanna ace card boxer can?(i miss bibi too -.-)

HAIZZZZZZ................................

for some stupid reason i feel like studying.

right now i'm dreaming that i'm going back to my class...expecting everyone there to be chatting loudly before the teacher comes....and then we'll be like stoning during lesson.....haizzz
miss those times.

WE WANT MOVIE AND BBQ OUTING!

west grand boulevard rox!

2009-11-16T13:21:00.003+08:00

yeeeeeehaaawww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wazzzzup everybody!!!!!!!

o levels are like sooo freakin over...!!!!!!!!!!!!!! time to paarrrtttaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah....updates for tha week....

friday we went to watch 2012!..............and omg....it was terrifyingg...........cried like nobody's business.......and got a couple of surprise classmates we met at vivocity,,,,hahax

enjoyed 2012 every bit of it...best movie ever!!!! haven't caught it yet? GO WATCH NOW!

ssooooo saturday was SP ESCAPADE!
IT WAS SOOOO AWESOME....GOT TO BE IN A MOSH PIT WITH WEST GRAND BOULEVARD AND ELECTRICO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SCREAMS*

first we(rajes,shobah,me) arrived at SP at 5pm where we got assigned to our group IMAGI....
then we proceeded to the convention hall where we danced to the beats of bloco singapura!
which made us win a pair of movie tix!!!!

then we made our way around SP and had ice-breaking games.....made some friends along the way too!

then it was 'inno-sea@the cube'......it was a very beautiful room....with a sea-like ambience...and blue lights glowing around.......and there i met my crush melting me with his beautiful voice....damn never gotta know your name,,,,

ok enough bragging about him!.....then it was midnite gig! omgggg i was in the mosh pit rocking my arse out for 10 mins before collapsing on the seats.....ahaha! damn west grand boulevard rocked out! coolio!

after much rocking out and dancing to zouk's DJ andrew chow, we made our way to vivocity for the sunrise surprise......Drums of Asia and SP daiko drummers welcomed the sunrise with cool beats!

so after a whole night out.....we sailed back home....wanna chech out more about escapade just log in to www.escapade.sg!

can't wait for NP red camp!

for grad nite....got 3/4 of my stuffs already......can't wait for it too!

ok.....thats it for today!.....
toodles and sleep like pigs everyone!

2009-11-10T13:09:00.001+08:00

yeeesssssssssssssss

we all know...

that p1 wll be over......

here comes tha mad sec 4's out of o's!

be prepared.
it's.gonna.be.terrifying.

2009-11-05T19:41:00.002+08:00

3 papers left!!!!!! omggggg

so can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PROMPROMPROMPROM!!!!!

but sadly no date..... :(

WHO CARES! GIRL FUN!!!!

2009-08-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

IT'S TIME TO PROVE YOU WRONG.

PERIOD.

2009-08-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time!!

okok.....main subject today:

I FREAKING PASSED 'O' MT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS SO O.M.G.

i was so damn tearful.....THANK YOU GOD!!!! :DDDDDDDD

ok.....so school is getting LIKE EVEN MORE STRESSFUL=TIRING=EFFED UP.

yes......prelims on the way.......one last shot!!!!!!!

english 'o' oral done.....not soo bad actually........31/40?

lots of things have been happenin'.

more crazed about inuyasha than ever.....omgomg.

ps: i want o's to be over.....can't wait........13 pts?

2009-08-03T18:01:00.002+08:00

school is nothing but utter tiredness.

i feel lost.

and sometimes i feel like i'm not working hard enough.

but the fact is i'm working. seriously.

i've given up some things recently.

one of them is you.

i feel a little bit better although.

it's nice to be free sometimes. away from hurt and pain.

a little happiness is that i passed s.s CA4......like W.O.W.

ps: happy 16th birthday to my dear bibiyana...
may lots of pressies be on your way :)

won't be updating frequently........
ya know....big o's is coming.

be in here once in a while....feelings must be lashed out in certain occasions.

2009-07-24T19:09:00.002+08:00

im.so.tired.

studying is becoming my hobby....like omfs?

to my friends who got the flu bug.......get well soon ya :D

nothing much to post for now.

everyday is just school.tiredness.depression.pain.study.

is love important now?

hard question.

love comes uninvited.
i knew you could never love me.

2009-07-15T20:24:00.002+08:00

MT oral is soo EFFING OVER.

this is fun.joy.and laughter.

so.......school is more like stress-like-shit-until-you-can-feel-your-brain-bleed-in-your-head.
yes....of course....we all need that eventually don't we?

just for precious points in the end....

AND FOR PEOPLE I KNOW WHO ARE GIVING UP AND THINKING/PLANNING TO GO ITE WILL BE MY UTTER EMBARRASSMENT.
definitely.

working my head off......but i still don't feel satisfied...hmmmm.....gotta deal with that...
might be considering for creative media design........sounds cool..

i don't know why i'm still infatuated with the SP guy.......lolss.......he's adorable.. -.-

skip that.....

2009-07-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

nothing much today........

i'm a little sad with the behaviour.

2009-07-03T18:28:00.003+08:00

erggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait for my bloody oral to start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i can't wait to get over with it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ass.ass.ass.

so today was like a super boring day.........starting with comb humans......
found something written on the table.................which made me pissed...
for something that WE DID'NT DO......that comment on the table had gone too far.
i'm giving that a BIG W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R.

my predictions will come true. i'll just wait.

anyway.........had a hilarious EL lesson with our new temp. teacher....mr.issac...
ommgggg
he's the best joker!!!!!

then revised at the library with some biology........

the more i think of o's, the more i want to finish it.
after that no one can talk about studying any more!!!!!!
hell with the books man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (until poly starts)

i'm loving cove more and more:DDDDD

2009-06-29T17:58:00.003+08:00

i fake a smile so you won't see.

trying to bury my pain for 2 years.

all i feel is that i'm a sore loser. simply a SORE LOSER.

i keep on smiling......like the world doesn't hurt me at all.

i don't want people to know my anger. my pain.

i forgave everything you did.......even though it stabs through my open wounds.
i forgave your ass attitude.
i forgave your criticism.
i forgave the hurtful words you've said sometimes.
i forgave.

all because of one word i'm doing this.

sometimes i look back at my life......and all the pain i've lived through...

i'm quite amazed at myself..

i'm living in a world of pain for 1095 days............
i'm living in a world of sorrow for 7 years.
and you still don't know.
i'm thankful that you don't have a life like me.
i'm thankful that you don't have to suffer my pain.

as i'm writing this....my tears are spilling out.....for real.

all because of one word.
that never failed to kill me everyday.
that never failed to make me alive everyday.

a very small confession i've made.
you don't want to know the rest.

2009-06-27T15:21:00.003+08:00

sometimes people just don't reflect what they have done.

sometimes they don't put themselves in other's shoes.

and when the the world turns on them back......they come running to us.

seeking forgiveness.

so why not reflect for what you've done.
and stop boasting about "it's my life.....you can't rule it"
yes.we can't rule it.
but we CARE for you.

pride makes every man fall.
ego breaks every bond of friendship slowly.

humbleness holds on dearly to the friendship.

well......maybe this post might go out to a friend.

i have nothing to say.

on the bright side.....TRANSFORMERS WAS THE BOMB!!!!!!!!
caught it with saeinah,shiqah and piggy.........
i.like.so.fell.in.love.with.optimus prime.
hahahahaha!
cool movie.......love all the transforming and fighting.....

while i was on the way home in the bus....i and piggy came out with a random and lame conversation....
piggy:why is the transformer name "the fallen"?
me:MY NAME IS "THE FALLEN".BECAUSE I'M FALLEN.
us:LOL
piggy:then bumblebee?
me:MY NAME IS BUMBLEBEE.BECAUSE I'M A BEE?

i continued that lame remark with optimus prime.......then converted the topic to prime supermarket?! o.o????

lol......

funny quotes from transformers:
1) i'm under the enemy's[decepticon] scrotum. (it was two soild metal balls.....sheesh)
2)look at that motha!!!! look at that shit!!(the twins[autobots] looking at the mother of all decepticons)
3)MOJO! stop dominating over frankie(2 dogs having sex)

apparently the actor who acted as "oompaloompa" in charlie and the chocolate factory acted as a sergeant in transformers??!!

lolol........weird........overall the best movie to catch if you're a fanatic like me!!!!

it was a good day :D

2009-06-14T10:39:00.007+08:00

had my religious exam at church.....

kinda nervous because i did'nt really study the notes properly.....so me and my mates were like helping each other remember the notes....teeheee....

so after much freaking around we went to the 3rd floor.....and i saw a dragonfly being eaten up by some ants...MAJOR EWWW.
went inside the room and sat down at my specific table......unlucky but as usual my cuzz had to sit far away from me...lol...so we planned "signals" to show that we'd done the paper......
eventually the paper wasn't hard at all......lawwl.....finished the paper like 1 1/2 hours......and they gave us 3 hours...... -.-
so saw the standard 10 peeps freaking out....thought the paper was hard.......

so after the paper,everyone complain and complain........and we went homie...

overall a great day because of ;D

had a good time looking at you silently.
i think i love you eh?

2009-06-11T14:07:00.002+08:00

just came back from english with sandra!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol....did compre and got condemned again with wrong sentences!!! HAHA!!!

had a good gossip time with her.....and some advice later on....hehe....well,i think i should listen to her......but it'll be quite hard for now......but i'll do it for the sake of O's..

quite tired now......anw SP experience was so fun! got a chance to be a radio DJ.....and saw some bacteria in bio lab....sheik haikel came.....WITH OVER EXCESSIVE HIPHOP....radical force and one crew with their dances...and Defianto with singing........
man that juying guy could krump!

lolol........had a fantastic time overall.........

so now i'm partly done with my DnT product......kinda hyper to paint it though....
should update my journal before that 'until the cow can sing' rants on me......

off!

damn i'm losing control over you....
and i'm crushing on that SP guy ;D

2009-06-06T13:22:00.002+08:00

a week of hols is gone......

ergh....how to study at home with sooo many remedials!?

well...planned out an intensive studying schedule....like omg...look who's studying???

let's all be brainy for once..

yeah and don't give up....

ps:Happy 16th to iliyana :D

2009-06-03T18:54:00.003+08:00

so had math remedial today........

piled with tons of math test papers... -.-
erghhh........

quote of the day....

"it is better to be loved by someone whom you don't love, rather than loving someone who doesn't love you."

do you agree?

a debatable question........i won't answer it anyway......lol

wee..... cherith kathilein :D

2009-05-30T11:07:00.003+08:00

long time never post....lol....

so got a surprise that he got baptized......AND I DID'NT KNOW!

erghhhh...........should see more people get baptized....lol..

so tomorrow is my big day........getting baptized too...

hope i can get a change to my name.........no more kalyani.....NO MORE!

oh, and monday is O' level mother tongue.....
i must freaking pass this......don't wanna retake....
God please make it easy for me......only you know how hard it is for me...

2009-05-25T18:17:00.001+08:00

huh...well...

i'm not bothering whether i failed badly or anything.

heads up high for prelims!

all the way!

and i'm gonna prove people wrong.

period.

2009-05-22T19:11:00.001+08:00

to you.

you said you'd meet.
you didn't.
i hope you are not a double crosser.

thank you.
peace out.

2009-05-19T11:21:00.002+08:00

that song hit me so hard.
it made my nights more miserable.

i don't think i can keep that poker face.
and still smile.
while it hurts me like a stabbing knife
with every word you say.

can my life get any worser?
i have much love to give.
but, no one is here.
everything is empty.

sometimes life just doesn't work out for me.
or actually,a certain part of my life which never happens at all.

can i take this any longer?
or will i result into violence soon?

everything just hurts in my world.

2009-05-17T20:17:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo!!!!

saturday was a blast at shobah's party!!!!!!!!!
happy sweet 16 my gal!

yeayea.....so had a fun time.......dance out at the last part.......
got a surprise when rusydi and syaril came........didn't expect them to come since the whole tribe was indians...LOLSSSS
seriously rusydi...you getting more handsome bro! HAHAHA!

yep....so had a fun time.......and i loved her party dress.....sparkly.... 8)

cake was so rockin......white chocolate......man i never tasted anything like it..... 8)

came home at about 10.45 pm...
and snored like an idiot until morning...

AND FINALLY I HAVE CONFESSED MY SINS.........
i'm like omg....i could cry any moment......good thing something has got out of me...
baptism here i come!

i'm standing there lost and cold
will anyone take me home?

woots

2009-05-15T12:57:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY DAMN SHIT 'F' OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeayea............

2009-05-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

1.more.exam

ommmgggggg

can't freaking wait for saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!

paaarrttaaayyyyyyyy:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Happy advanced sweet 16 shobah!!!!!!!!!!!! can't wait for the party!!
i'm too excited.....(reason for extra early wish-.-)

and not forgetting(actually i will never forget :P)....the one and only...

Happy sweet 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to my dearest darlzzz sharizal :DDDD
hope you like my present :DD
i like it though :P
love ya always :D

back again to shobah's paarrttaayy.........bought stuffz...
like omfs i'm going to wear a halter dress??!!
o.o
i.have.to.be.girlish(eww).for.a.day
i.can.do.it

oh goodness for a night.ONLY A NIGHT.

sometimes i wish my sweet 16 was nicer.....how sad.

2009-05-12T13:32:00.002+08:00

a little time to blog....

well a week of brain drain did good on me....

felt like a sick whore?
o.o?

last 3 papers........like finally a weekend of slack out......

the journey's not over yet though.............

here comes the mugging for o's....

a little quote:
"all our dreams can come true....if we have the courage to pursue them"

bio-med??
criminal psychology??? (if there ever was a course -.-)
physiotherapist?????????????????????
pharmaceutical science??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one thing's for sure....ngee ann poly....
but singapore poly is a dream...
haiz... :(

2009-04-22T18:43:00.002+08:00

blog on hold.

mid years.

before i go...

i sit there to stare at life that unfolds to nothingness.
to love that never will exist.
i just sit there screaming silently.

cause' no one can see how much i keep bleeding inside.
bleeding.......trying to set this thing called 'me' free.
i smile on the outside.
i die in the inside...

toodles.

2009-04-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

i just love my choir to bits no matter what.

you guys are the greatest.

and thanks to everyone who supported me...during my/our hard times.
especially to bee......5 words
i love you to death.

bronze is like so vulgar now?

2009-04-12T18:52:00.004+08:00

cloud with a silver lining.....

a bestie and a crazy:D

saienah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

looking cool before the run

happy easter everyone.......

yep....so sports day is over too.....dear rajes did'nt win anything.....it's ok....your'e still the best runner!!

well nothing much going on actually.....2 days left for SYF......

guys we did a good job on ''dana dana''..............please be emotional on ''arirang''?

that is the prob.....emotions......boonlayians no emotions????!! o.o

wth.

anyway....homework here i come......

2009-04-08T18:51:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS TO BAND FOR ACHIEVING A SILVER!
AND TO MALAY DANCE FOR ACHIEVING GOLD WITH HONOURS!

haizz......i'm so happy for them...... :D

approximately 6 days left to SYF.
tension is building.

oh god.........................
help.me.

vomit is rising in my throat.

:((

i have nothing to post about yet........

let's go to the exciting part...tomorrow is sports day!!!!!!!
GOOD LUCK TO ALL RUNNERS....YOU CAN DO IT!

yea.....i lost to shot putt this time....saddening....i'm left with a bronze trophy and medal in my cabinet....pathetic...
top 8 feels stupid to me.
ergh.

anyway........pizza treat tomorrow!!! yay!!!

2009-03-28T19:35:00.002+08:00

heyhey...........................

sorry for the late posting......yea...there's like no time in the world now for me....
so school update!

well the weeks are flying fast.......mid years are coming.....like raging bulls....(be afraid..be very afriad o.o)

yep......so...gonna put my whatever-thats-left-in-my-brain into it :D

bio lesson!!! we had a HIV testing session....I GET TO HAVE SEX WITH 3 GIRLS!!!! THREESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! *wolf whistle*

so much for the fake sex......everyone tested and a lucky bunch got HIV.......so usual class got chaotic........we should have more of this in bio:D

this week was a rather fun week i could say.....lolsss

SYF is drawing nearer also......................monday's performance is like so unnecessary.
choir exchange coming up at the 4th of april.................

that emptiness is coming on again......that pitch black darkness ahead of me....the silence of victoria concert hall......the judges waiting........

why does this sound like judgement day?!

*trembles*

something tells me we should just do "swelling" during SYF and we can achieve something.

can we all do that?

2009-03-19T11:55:00.003+08:00

wootsss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fell soooo ecstatic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
finally choir has received enlightenment!!!!
*scream*
thanks to ****!!!! omgomgomg.....

like after 3 years.........good greatness has fell upon us......

*dreamy/bastard face*

so its exactly 25 days left to SYF........can't wait!!!!!!.

so the hols are kinda boring......with like homework and all....and more studies...
for the sake of 'o's......sigh....

well then.....update later:)

2009-03-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

hello people..........

well today is the first day i've missed school because i'm bloody effing sick of sromach flu.
my perfect attendance.....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok skip the drama.

SYF is on the way......................15th april...
haish.........i feel that i'm making mr.charles chan disappointed...........
i don't understand why the guys can't feel the pressure......and i don't want the choir to fail because of them.
please don't ruin us.I beg you.

DON'T YOU ALL FEEL SCARED FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(silence)

it's up to the judges hands.
have mercy on us please.

i don't want my last year to be ruined by getting a bronze...or worse..COP.
it means i've failed doing my best....singing.

to ili if you're reading this.......
i also regret being VP.
i don't deserve anything...
my help is too mediocre.

small confession.....i just want to be a normal singer.and i don't want to have status for the sake of having a status or because i'm popular or whatever fck.I want to be recognised for my talent.

altos should make effort to remember the dynamics and a few notes,we'll be alright then...
it's not that difficult.

***

can't wait to get back to school.

2009-02-28T19:59:00.003+08:00

hey yo................

so....plenty stressful days.....

went out today to catch pink panther 2......................yeayea..it's hilarious...and kind of dumb in some ways....

haha! had a great time anyway.....

for today's topic:

SOME GUYS SHOULD NOT TREAT GIRLS LIKE TOYS.

yes....i totally agree with that.....
we girls are meant to be treated with respect.
and we don't wanna see how many girls you have dated in the past,present and future.
like f.c.k

some guys are so immature.......and they don't know how much pain we take.

asshole.

ergh........GROW UP!

anyways......choir is doing quite well.......like for goodness sake finally.

i've got a feeling we'll clinch a silver.
(breathes hard)

to concert band.......don't give up.....we're all in this together.

let's share the joy and pain.

2009-02-21T19:18:00.002+08:00

weekends!!!!!!!!!!

i seriously treasure it now.........with the amount of remedials nowdays......there is nothing left in my head except brain juice?

LOLS!

yesterday was a hilarious day........laughed out with my senior saldila to some stupid jokes...about a cockroach.....talked and made fun of teachers......i hope we can continue this every friday!!!

well recently i have been sick...sucky flu....erghh..................

i was just thinking what i would do after the 'o's.......here's a list:

1.S.L.E.E.P
2.WATCH MORE AVATAR.....if there is still episodes.. :D
3.watch more movies.
4.DO NOT SEE TEXTBOOKS,TOUCH IT,OR EVEN SMELL IT.
5.FACEBOOKING ALL THE WAY.
6.PET SOCIETY ALL THE WAY.
7.MORE MUSIC.
8.SLEEP MORE.

list will continue soon....

haha! well before i can do that......studies come first for now...
7 months left!!!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-14T17:15:00.002+08:00

yo!!!

long time no update!!!!

so today is valentine's day!

yeayea....no date for me... :(

but had a great time with friends though! did donation collecting ........

boring.

yes. i know...

haizz....................

i'm seriously stressed up with school and everything.....i'm very exhausted.

but i will follow my atiqah's saying!

"shoot for the moon....if you fail,you'll fall among the stars"

i'm gonna do well ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok toodles for now.....

enjoy your valentine's people!

if you only knew how i felt.
i am so lost.

2009-01-25T14:37:00.002+08:00

hey ho!

so...a full week of school's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CNY CNY...HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!

alot of ups and downs been happening....................thank god it's being solved! :D
i hate problems.

4E6 i'm proud of ya!!!!!!!!!!!! we won hamper competition!!!!!!!
let us win more in 2009 for the last time and year in BLSS!

thinking about leaving in like 9 mths time.......i will dearly miss my class......and all the crazy stuff we did.....
the blood,sweat and tears...(ok exaggeration)LOL.

but still....this is our home...my home.

haha!!

i swear i will blog about the stuff i /we did in 2009 after 'o's......yea....

ok......for now...i'm off to chalet!!!!!!!!!!! for 2 day 1 nite!!! (pathetic and i'm still happy?!)
but still must study for bio CA1.......like F sia..........

no more slacking.....must put on brainy cap once more.......

CONCENTRAAATIONNNNN......

well........tag on soon ya..

and to sharizal if you are reading this:I WILL BEAT YOU IN 'O'S!!!! MY $2 BET IS ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MWAHA!!!

2009-01-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

i'm sad......

VERY sad............

it hurts me.

2009-01-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

BITCH OFF!!!

AND BITCH ABOUT!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

man...school is cool.

'o' levels drool!

2008-12-26T15:29:00.002+08:00

hey hey!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha=)

woots...........had a blast at night with relatives on the 24th....
PARTAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25th was rather quiet..........simple celebration at night.........

best part is the presents ain't it??

loads of them =o

so today....is a day of relaxation......haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

well recently had a nightmare.

have you ever had a nightmare so real that you could feel the person's warmth on you?

tell me if you do please.

its kinda freaky.

but not when it's the person you love right?

tsk...

sooo...........................................

school's starting soon.....
right now i feel lost since 'o's are coming soon.
i feel weird actually.

like something hit me so hard in the head that i realise something...
pain..PAIN..

toodles for now..

i want bill and jacob black can?=D

2008-12-19T15:30:00.010+08:00

woo!!

nz pics!!!!

so yeah.......it's sooooooooooooooooooo beautiful.............

i will never forget the great time we had there :)

MISS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

plan to go there again after 'o's.................(er....HOPEFULLY)

haizzzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-12-15T13:32:00.001+08:00

woohoo!

got a bag and converse!
:D

yeayea...

2008-12-12T12:36:00.003+08:00

finally 16......

-.-

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT.

apparently......

some have forgot.

anyway...

thanks to those who have wished me :)

so let's just sing a song for me

happy birthday to me.

happy birthday to kat....

happy birthday to me.

hahahahahahhaha............................................................................

will be going out at night.....

i want my bag,my converse,

MY BILL KAULITZ POSTER.

sad thing is....i cant get a b'day kiss from bill kaulitz :(

sweet 16 ain't so sweet always.

2008-12-11T14:28:00.001+08:00

1 more day..................................1 more day........................

-.-

2008-12-09T15:06:00.002+08:00

it's a tuesday..

and it's boring.

*sigh*..................................................

so,just came back from chalet.......had a blast with my cousins....

hmmmssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.......................................

well...to say....i've got a little changed feeling in myself.......i feel a little..."dark" in my mentality....

which includes listening to darker songs............(yes..my blog song says it...my current fave though..)

and being dark....(please exclude my skin colour -.-)

specifically to say........mr.emo is coming into my head a little.........but i'm not gonna turn into one...
(yes piggy.....NO!)

so....an update of my change....

hmmmmmmmmmm....................................let's hope this doesn't affect the rest of my body...

3 days to my effing b'day..

2008-12-01T15:21:00.002+08:00

hello my people of dread and woe..

sigh........

got our syf piece...it's called ''white horses''......to tell the truth i love the alto part very much..

its GOTHIC..

yesszzaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well...i dunno what's wrong with me lately......i felt that something left me...
something too dear........and i need it to keep me alive..

i dunno what the hell it is....but it's killing me anyway..

haish....

the day that you realize what i am feeling.....
i'll be soon rejected.

2008-11-28T18:29:00.002+08:00

eursh...

14 days to my 16th birthday.

fuck

2008-11-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

yo!!!!!!!!!!

i'm like soo back from new zealand!!!

yepyep :)

it was extremely fun.....
i'm missing all of it now......i wanna go back!!!!

:(

pic uploads will be late..

major upload.....hahazzzzz

so yeah.......

beautiful place.......peaceful...

my misery has left me...

2008-11-14T12:22:00.002+08:00

woots...

5 more days to nz...................

anxious.ANXIOUS.

not packed my stuff yet........
hms........

had a nightmare recently..

it involves...............ammonium chloride?
o.o?

stupid NH4Cl..............

so like finally school's over!!!!!!!!!!

yesyes....

after a draggy 3 week of studies..

we saw an eye dissection video...........includes a cow's eye..
shiok ah the video!
all the blood....... :DDDDDDD

then for chemistry, we had much laughter...
here goes the conversation....it's about free moving electrons....or ions i think...

mrs hong:so what will be swimmimg in the water class!?

yi xian:fish!

everyone laughs.

mrs hong: yixian! stand!

i bet he was swearing words then...

HAHA!

yeah......so...our dear chacha is missing in action in school..
but i swore i heard a meow on the 4th floor....

chacha where have you been????

:(

for SYF:

we got the set piece! it's called "white horses"

hope its not so...............disastrous.

but it sounds pretty nice to me..

and WHY DO SOLOISTS HAVE TO STAND INFRONT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????

2008-11-08T19:06:00.002+08:00

hello hello........

well,after the election of president obama...the whole world has gone pretty crazy :D

(i'm still obsessesed with him...my comp background has his pics all over :O)

haha...

so hopefully my dear obama can bring peace!

wootwoot..

so it's a rather draggy extended term.....it sucks ya know.....to come back and study..

WHILE YOU ALL POTATO SACKS SLEEP AT HOME.

-.-

the world is biased and we all know it....

so about choir...

well....it seems a wee bit better......although my voice cracked....(no i'm not gay or anything)

and yeah......if you guys continue to be fu***** CHILDISH....we can win anything in SYF except a piece of paper that says "certificate of participation"

yes.it.is.embarrassing.

and i know we can do better.

but.the.fact.is we.aren't.

all my best wishes to the choir at the JV sec performance..

well.......hopefully there are oppurtunities to reveal my iyalbaanathiramae.....somewhere in the near future...

hmmm........................

the sky is getting dark softly outside...

perfected beauty.

hope my misery could fade away like that.

and yeah.....

i love you alot.

so please reply my comment.

thank you.

and to chacha:
i see that darkness is filling your eyes.
i hope that you will live long.
and not leave us.

2008-11-05T16:34:00.003+08:00

OBAMA WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUU BBAAAAAARAACCCCCCCCKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-03T15:06:00.003+08:00

OBAMA IS WINNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SUPPORT ALL FOR YA BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16 more days to NZ......

anxiousness...
o.o

had a war for room choosing in core goeg class today....

so i'm sleeping in with:

first 4 days:iliyana and santhiya
next few days:atiqah and sheela

hurray hurray:DDDDDDDD

a week more to religious exam..

can't wait to see hims* o.o

yes its kinda scandal here o.o?

confused confused......................................................................

39 more days to 16 years.....

i'm getting more old.

:&

2008-10-25T10:35:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time..........

anyway,school is getting more boring with extended term......

no comments..

so......

thursday was a pre farewell to our principal...

she was in tears....

sad..

yep...and the sec 2 and 1's are happily sleeping at home...
while i'm at school studying ny ass off..

i hate this.

2008-10-19T11:30:00.003+08:00

PROMOTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mwahahahahahahaha!

yes....days have been a whole lot better......

can't wait for my new hair!

and stuff for new zealand!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ah...happiness...

2008-10-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is promotion day.

i'm gonna die.

may the teachers have mercy on me.

2008-10-15T14:41:00.000+08:00

mwaha!

i'm back and happy as ever! :D

results so far ok...

except math.

damn.

2008-10-10T13:30:00.003+08:00

haha.....

english oral is over...

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER.

finally i can say that.....

so.....had a rather chatty time with ms.syikin..
made her laugh too.......

talked about subjects in school....

so....there's nothing much now...
except RESULTS...

omg.......the first i'm gonna kena is core geog and chem.....

arrggghh!!!!!!!!!! die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T

so choir starts next week.........preparation for SYF.....scary...
it's time we should achieve something.
ASAP.
period.

i'm totally sick of hearing..
"ooh...choir's for sissies"
"choir ah? please larh....got better cca.."
"choir? only for girls!"
"i'm not gay"

-.-

2008-10-09T18:24:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE HELL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RESULTS ARE EFFING STARTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-07T12:49:00.002+08:00

ok...

math paper 2 was neutral.

50/50?

maybe..

2 left....

must score A1 for D'n'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so......for the past week and a half was a rather...muggy-idiotic-madness-emo-f***-week.

haha...yeah....simply no words to describe...

why do they wanna kill us?

aren't we dead enough?

-.-

my life is in the hands of GOD.
i really need your help.

and...

area prayer at HIS house....OMG!!!!!
0.0

i wanna go!!

-.-

oh,sweet love...
it's killing me...

2008-10-06T13:10:00.001+08:00

3 more papers to go!

but i'm scared.

will i make it to sec4 exp?

i'm seriously doomed.

GOD I NEED YOU NOW!

2008-10-03T11:58:00.003+08:00

i'm back with misery.

ergghhh.....

stupid bio exam was freaking difficult!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid history with its stupid 3b) SEQ!!!!!!!!!!!!

couldn't understand 5 ques. of maths today!!!!!!!!!!!

asshole paper.

i feel like screaming in anger.

2008-09-30T18:16:00.003+08:00

hello to all.....

s.s exam is done..

seriously i think they should give us 2 hrs to do it...
with the length of the essays.........
:o

yep yep......

~selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all muslim friends~

i want kueh tart!!!!!

boo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T

2008-09-29T13:21:00.003+08:00

hardy har har....

chem was ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesh..
but core geog sucked....

i couldn't remember anything about river processes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@$$#!!!*****.

haish...let bygones be bygones i expect?

hmmss......

so tmrw is s.s paper.
gonna do well for it!
must must!

i got nothing much to blog..
so i'm gonna write out these lyrics...
dug out my cd's and found this old good charlotte cd..
used to go emo over this song, emotionless.
but it's meaningful though.
here's a cut from it..

emotionless-good charlotte:

hey dad..
i'm writing to you..
not to tell you,that i still hate you.
just to ask you how you feel..
and how we fell apart..
how this fell apart...

are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down,how do you sleep at night?
do even wonder if we're alright?

chorus:
it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
you broke my mother's heart,you broke your children for life
it's not ok,but we're alright
i remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine..
i spent so many years learning how to survive
now i'm writing just to let you know i'm still alive...

and sometimes i forgive...
yeah this time...i'll admit..
that i miss you..i miss you.....
hey dad....

yep..so this song is actually dedicated to those who have divorced parents...
(like me)

i cried when i first heard this song...5 years ago..

haha...so...blog tmrw!

toodles:)

2008-09-27T15:57:00.001+08:00

hmms...

today's saturday......

had bio/chem remedial..

4 hours!!!!!

:XXXXXX

finally its finished...

i'm scared.

1 day left for exams.

god help me.

happy advanced birthday to fazilah

may your wishes come true:D

2008-09-23T14:43:00.003+08:00

huha!

compo exam over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fcuk you ass compo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesh.....

i.think.he.likes.me.

I THINK ONLY AH.......

but seriously i don't.
i'm sorry..

so, bio remedial was cancelled...
mrs.hong didn't turn up for remedial...
escaped:D

ah..the pleasure...

can't wait for NZ trip!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i'm gonna bitch out..
but i'm not gonna act like one.
i'm original.

hahazzz........

toodles....

i.l.y.b.k
<33333333

2008-09-20T14:17:00.003+08:00

back...

from study hell i guess?

yeah...its a week left....
d.i.e

i'm so freakin stressed..

humph.

is it better to break a friendship with a backstabbing friend than rather to control your feelings and stiil have the person as your friend?

well.
i don't know.

why do friends act like this?
is my kindness like an advantage to you?

so.
let me not show my kindness any more.
and see whether you like it.
which i don't care anyway.

and you'll find out one day that i'm a patient friend to take all your so called fuckin' shit.
AND NOT TELL IT IN YOUR FACE STRAIGHT AWAY.
:)

ah...
not so friendly am i?

so one day,
a fight will start.
I'M PREPARED FOR IT.
and you're gonna lose.
get it shithole?

so...back to school week.
it's been as usual..with more work...
no choir till 17 oct.
can study in peace.

and i'm gonna put a new image after exams.
get a hair cut.
which probably make me look wilder.
yeah.
that's it.
WILDER :)

hush little sweetheart,
for my love's gonna put you to sleep peacefully.
i'll be there holding your hand,
through your darkest nights.
i'll be your guardian angel.

2008-09-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

hi hi.........

i'm like uber bored........

so,nothing much happened in school today.
boring.VERY BORING.
got a good scolding from mr.kambeng to the whole class..
for slacking in bio...

CCA was boring too.....mr.tham did not come....
hmphs.
but could'nt stop laughing with rajes with my racist jokes. *no offence*
it should'nt be an offence if a good friend like sharizal who says ''indians stink'' right in my face.
with a loud shout of ''nigger'' after that.
-.-

so now i'm sitting here....
thinking...
about..
you...

and how we could never be together.

i'm falling for you.
i'm scared that i'll misjudge you.
though you have a beautiful soul
hopefully my heart will be with you.

i hope one day you hear this.
when i say this with my very on lips.
face to face.
heart to heart.

i love you.

2008-09-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

ok....i'm gonna get down real hard.

FCCCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
YYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
EEEEEEEEEEEEXXXXXXXXXAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSSSS

ok.
i'm at a point where i'll skin anyone alive.

shit.
ass.
kanina.
CB.
ho.
whore.

2008-09-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

w00ts...

1 day left to school....
wee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

boring be gone!

mwaha!

today, i'm gonna talk about uniqueness!

statement: EVRYBODY LOVES NICK JONAS.

BUT I DON'T.
i think kevin jonas is hot.**** HOT.

statement:EVERYBODY THINKS ALEX EVANS IS CUTE.

BUT I DON'T.
i think jojo from ''horton hears a who'' is more emo and cuter.HE'S IN MA LIST BABY!

statement:EVERYBODY SAYS CHRIS BROWN'S GOT STYLE.

BUT I DON'T.
i think ne-yo's got a sexy ass and sexy lips.
*kiss kiss*

statement:EVERYBODY LOVES ZAC EFRON.

BUT I DON'T.
corbin bleu's much more.......w00ts.

statement:EVERYBODY SAYS SURYA IS THE BEST RUNNER.

BUT I DON'T.
i think kumaran is better as he is not much of an alien,like surya.

statement:EVERYBODY LOVES DRAKE BELL.

BUT I DON'T.
i think josh is cuter:D

heehee...

so there's a list of my uniqueness..........................

*i love u jojo forever!

2008-09-04T12:52:00.003+08:00

song playing:quietdrive - time after time

sadly to say,
you're a effing bitch who is a double crosser for races.

thank you.

maybe,like what the song says,
time after time you'll change.HOPEFULLY.

this i a random post.
feel free to criticise,if you want.
want to fight?
i'm ready for a one-on-one.
TRY ME.

2008-09-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

good day people!!

its the holidays......and i have already started mugging :(
done with 3 subjects......2 more left....
keep going baby!!!!

today's topic is something about us teenage girls.
well,i'm thankful that i'm a wholesome person,and not in some whorehouse,selling my body.
i've came across this reality show,and, WOW.
teenage girls,as young as 13.....paid for having sex....AND EVEN WILLING TO HAVE KIDS.
like wtf. like we don't have enough problems already.
and their behaviours are like so effing shit and violent.
ok really,their pure whores.
i mean...really...sex over 300 times?
and the girls actually says its ok and they don't care what people say?
hell.to.them.
and their poor mothers were crying out loud as their daughters truths were revealed on tv.

in my opinion:
it's not gonna take you anywhere in life...
you're just ruining yourself and your body.
your not pure any more as what GOD have created you.

hell man....

but thankfully.....i watched another of the show.
the girls had at least dropped their ''sex lives''
and turned a new leaf.....after being sent to jail.

well,back to me again.

i'm seriuosly falling all over AGAIN.
i have no idea what to say to myself.

school.holidays.are.boring.

link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DE9llClgTqY&feature=related

2008-08-29T16:43:00.002+08:00

honestly to tell,

as friends,we care for one another.
never ever mistake that.
we love you dearly,never second doubt that.
if anything happens to you,we are gonna feel it too.
THAT IS WHY WE CARE FOR YOU.

a true friend always stay behind you and be there for you,in times of trouble.

so...today was teachers day.
did ACES in the morning.
performance in the hall.
AND I DON'T LOVE AIDIL, RAFIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-.-
I'M NOT A BETRAYER.
ERRGGGHHHHH..

so,
watched kambeng dance to 'low' by flo rida
he honestly looked very...............................CUTE AND FUNNY.TRYING TO DANCE HIP HOP.
you get the idea right?

mwahahahhahahahha.......

didn't go to pri.sch...
dunno why......in the end felt like going,but the stupid gate will close by 3p.m
small bro suren told me.....like fish..why not when the school ends?
damn.

ok....i really got nothing to say here.....

i'll never betray you.i keep my word.
you may not take it seriously.but i will.

2008-08-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

song playing: hold my hand - New Found Glory

hooha...........

s.s CA is like so bloody over..
:D
i.don't.care.about.it.
now its time to focus for the EYE.

well....today is a wednesday...(we all know that -.-)

had a wee little fun...in class:D
one of THOSE DAYS where mrs.''yoohoo'' doesn't scold us or anything violent gets in her head.
(the joy=DD)

so basically everyone including me were groaning after the s.s papers.......NO TIME NO TIME!!!
stupid........i couldn't even beautify my answers!!!!!!
fish...

well...i'm gonna fail..as USUAL...
*holds peace sign*

to tell the truth......during RAP.......we were given an article about stress,exams...and smth.
there was this segment: THE IRONY,OUR PARENTS.

''parents complain about the MOE giving us pressure in school studies......but then why parents overload us with tuition after school and jammed pack time tables?''

GOOD POINT.
i totally agree with that.
haha........

ok.....time for I COMPLAIN TIME!
complain: i feel like certain people are drifting away from me.why? did i do something wrong? or did you bunch just make up a plan to distance yourselves from me?

haish...

2008-08-26T18:21:00.003+08:00

of all days...i thought i could escape,but yes,i have to face the fact.
MR.KAMBENG CALLED MY MUM.
OOO.MMM.GG.
yes i know.
but it was for a good reason.....
told my mom i improved on my bio..
:D
enough with the cardiac arrest.
-.-

so yeah...did my core geog and hist CA.
just hope i can pass(like for pete sake)
28 more days left.
i'm stressing.
0.0!!!!!!!!!!!!

no smiley can express my expressions.

to piggy:i love who i really love.AND IT WON'T BE ANOTHER ''U'' STORY.
FUCK!
ergghhh.....i still hate that nigga.

no.one.can.explain.me
neither.can.i
sheesh.

O LORD,PLEASE BLESS ME WHILE I DO MY PREPARATIONS FOR MY EYE.YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I HAVE.TAKE CHARGE OF ME AND GIVE ME THE KNOWLEDGE AND DISCIPLINE TO WITHSTAND ANY DISTRACTIONS AND TO STAY FOCUSSED.

oookkaaayyyy.................

so yeah.

and yeah one more thing.

RANDOM:please speak english when you are with other races.cause' i'm damn fuckin sick of standing there,and not understanding what you say.WOULD YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY IF I DID THAT TO YOU?
so be considerate.

2008-08-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

sunday..sunday...sunday...

study.study.study.

EYE is nearing....approximately 35 days left.
o.o
i'm scared.i'm freaking out.i'm nervous.

SATURDAY:

so yesterday was flag day.collected money for the mental health association.
then headed to mac for ice cream with faz.....

FRIDAY:

damn hilarious day at shobah's house....
came out with a topic on ''men giving birth instead of us women,and how their reactions will be''.
had a good time imitating several guys we know on how they will give birth :D

MWAHAHAHA!!!!! now you'll feel the pain guys!
so don't think girls will not go through as much pain as you all!

so yep....that was the 2 days......

ok back to studying.

toodles:)

can we stop looking at each other.i feel wierd.

2008-08-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

to people who honestly despise me in their hearts but too afraid to show it to me:

FRANKLY JUST FUCK OFF
REALLY.
I DON'T NEED PEOPLE LIKE YOU.

2008-08-16T18:21:00.007+08:00

haha.....random...
who knows? 0.0

whoohaa.....maybe it is.....

nigga!

2008-08-16T18:21:00.006+08:00

saturday's performance is so over....
and it was definitley oh so sucked up to me.
i'm.pissed.
its like a total norm for our choir to naturally suck up at performances.

why?

has someone cursed us or what?

eff it.

when.will.we.ever.do.better?

SYF's next year.

how?

is there any glimpse of hope?

a day of triumph at least.

2008-08-16T18:21:00.005+08:00

one day the ones who made people suffer,shall suffer themselves.

my condolences to bee's uncle's family.

with a bleeding heart i have tried.
but it shall never hide.
the pain and sorrow showed on my face.
with much disgrace.
you shall never know.
the words that should come from my lips.
for you stand at the end and i stand at the other.
when will we be in the middle.
together?

2008-08-11T12:06:00.000+08:00

woosh.....

today.is.monday.
yeah.
right.
boring.

pfftt.....

2008-08-08T19:15:00.000+08:00

yo!

NDP!

yeah.....today was ultimately a great day.......
fun and truckloads of it....
unfortunately woots wasn't there at all..
haish....

anyway back to da story....
performed for the 1st time as a main for the class ndp competiton....
sadly,due to biasedness,we won 3rd.
and as usual you all know who'll win.
saren is still a bastard.

forever.

so,rocked out and went for charity bazaar.....
talked all the way with friends.....
went for choir,half dead.
sang..........
and sang....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
you know what i mean.

then went to JP.met leony and co.!
chatted more.....
and went home....
AND SLEPT!

-.-

i love you truckloads baby!

yep,that was today

2008-08-03T19:15:00.002+08:00

yo!

back again baby=)
so yesterday was dear leony's b'day....
celebrated with a surprise cake from wilson
CHOCOLATE CAKE........yum!
after a day of dancing and tuition,went home like dead tired...
so tomorrow's the auditions....hope 3/6 can make it...
MODEL CLASS AWARD FOR LEONY =))))))

hmmmmssss.......lately i've been enjoying myself....then it hit me.
i've never got angry for this half of the year.
wow.
that's an effort.

today:
went for dancing again......had loads of fun boogie-ing :)
and then.
THERE WAS A FUCKING CENTIPEDE!!!!!!
LEONY!!!!!! A CENTIPEDE!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUPER SHEELA IS HERE TO THE RESCUE!!!!!

so great sheela took her slipper and,
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE........
the centipede's gone.

SUPER SHEELA SAVED US!!
HOORAYYYSSS!!!!!!!!!!

ok lame i know.

but that crawling menace was disgusting.
ew.ew.ew.

then,headed back home....

so here i am now blogging :*

i'm.so.tired.

toodles for today people.....

2008-07-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

wee!

friday!

awww....so sad....
another week passed so fast! :(

well....today's choir....got me kinda pissed.
it's.always.the.guys.

never changes.

other than that.....it's been a good day =)

i.feel.happier.than.usual.
wonder why.....

my stupid phone's earpiece spoiled.....
and its only 7 mths!
eeesssshhhhh..

so me and rizal talked cock in core geog lessons..
laughed too much...
ooohh......whipped cream and chocolate sauce on top of a guy's...
the rest is for you to imagine :D

HAHA!
ok....fudge sundaes are popping out in my mind now...
control.CONTROL.

hahazz....

today is ashikin's b'day!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIKIN! =)

2008-07-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

i feel alone now....

why?

i feel that you're gone......i'm sorry to let you know this

2008-07-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

yep...
another week of school has passed....
ain't it fast?

well,this week has plenty of ups and downs...
been there,done that.thank god.
i think i should learn a new subject.
"how to control my feelings".
yeah.that would be great.

the object of my anger would go out to that blcb freako.
yes.
the band freako.
:)
the only solution to my problem.

i'm evil and i don't give a piehole to him.
KMA BABY.
or maybe mrs.woohoo.
yeah.why not?

haha.....

yes,well like FINALLY i passed my math CA.
sec 3 record.wowwwweeee..
*shakes ass*
mwaha.

so,hope next week will be eventful.
no doubt with the CA's......

i'll be there to catch you when you fall...

tsskkk..

2008-07-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

saturday's performance is so over.......

people were bored?
answer may be yes.....and no
sadly.

so yep.
HE CAME.
LIKE WTF.
HE WISHED ME GOOD LUCK ON FRIDAY'S REHEARSAL.
LIKE EVEN MORE WTF.

pfffttt.
like whatever huh.

so yeah lets skip that part.
before i ruin my day.
-.-

so done with the performance.
friends cheered and so on.
saldila,johnson and aizad came.
at least some seniors care for once -.-

went back to school.
then JP.
then homie.

ok fine....i know it's boring.
saturdays....wad do ya expect?

sheesh.

2008-07-08T17:14:00.000+08:00

back again!

update on st.joseph's home:

well,half of my classmates and i walked to st.joseph's after school...
reached there.
it was simply sad to see them just staring blankly at nothing....
tried to befriend them....only several were happy to see us
but the rest were like,not bothered?

probably they're sick of life.
who won't be anyway?

but it's a pity :(

well,this week seems to be a little....lonely i guess..

ARE YOU PUSHING ME AWAY!!?
ILY OK!
TRULY!
>:(

2008-07-06T17:14:00.002+08:00

blazing race is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally.....

it was a tiring day....running up bukit chandu,ford factory and kranji war memorial..
phew!

well....next week gonna visit st.joseph's home..
performance at west mall on saturday :D

hopefully i won't go emo over the elderly at st.joseph's....
sometimes we just can't stand the sadness..

abandoning the elderly isn't a fun thing.we shouldn't take them for granted.
i'll update more on that next week.

for the performance,CAN'T WAIT!!
but i would rather sing,in my opinion.(if you wish to object,you may)

gonna do HSM again....
escaping flag day :D hooray!!
asking money from the ever-so-sympathetic-singaporeans :%

well,that's it for the week
i'm betting next week will be a good one(if there's any surprises :D)

LET'S RUN AROUND LIKE RETARDS AND BOOGIE!!!
:D

2008-06-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

suhailah and me

saren!

izza and me before SIS.

saren again!

okokokok....
so like the BIG day was over!
yep..the SYF opening ceremony.....

IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yep the whole crowd was there....friends and classmates and all...
its a loooooonnnnggg story.....
can't really describe...
the nervousness...anxiety... :O
but boon lay rocked da house any way!!!!!!!!
BL CHOIR ROX MY SOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAHH!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDD

and my bloody effin face was on the display screens and dumb dumb photographer kept taking shots of me....you're telling me i look gorgeous? -.-'''''

well....2 months of hard work was done and was displayed well!!
ok..i'm starting to miss those times...sobs*

ah...but the sad part was we couldn't watch the finale....sigh..
WHO CARES!! POM POMS ARE COOLER RIGHT!?

so yeah...that was 27.06.08
and thank you mr.tham for coming to the preview..

thank you for spotting me shira! love you babe!

and thanks shanky for swaying along with our songs and dance!

thisha you suck for taking the video!!!! :D

thank you aravin and danial for coming too!!!!

thank you boonlayians for attending the show!

to ili:pom poms are still cooler than the finale..we were definitely the best any way! hee!! :D

i'll never forget this event ever!!!
i've cherished every moment of it sincerely :D

and i'll keep the costume and lightstick until it rots!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i love my choir alot.

2008-06-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

back again...

well,supported rafie in boon lay idol......
erm..
all i can say is that hopefully he'll make it for the 2nd auditions.
its all to mdm shaffie's mercy now.

had choir yesterday...danced as usual...
i know.
i'm bored.
again.

really can't wait for mr.tham to come back....
I NEED TO SING CHORAL MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arggghhhhh.....

damn you.
damn the world.
piss myself.

2008-06-15T20:16:00.005+08:00

tmrw bio remedial...
like finally some school...
dammit.

some poem i saw....
this is what i'll say to my dearest(if i have any).

I promise baby I'll love you
with you forever I'll stay
I'll do anything and everything
To keep harm to you away

I promise baby I can give you hugs
That only I can give
I'll honor and protect you
As long as I shall live

I promise baby I'll give you kisses
So sweet forever you'll taste
I'll kiss you until tomorrows here
No kisses for you to waste

I promise baby I'll be here with you
Like I know you'll be there for me
I'll bring happiness to your eyes
Love deeper than the sea

I promise baby I'll never hurt you
forever have no fears
I'll give up everything
To see you cry no tears

i'd give anything for one more minute with you.....

ILYSM.

2008-06-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

ahhhh....prince caspian.....

watched it.
AWESOME MAN....

well i was burning off when susan kissed him...argghh.......
all the permission to kiss such a hot creature...

well well.....1 week left....cannot tahan....
must.go.school.

*screams*

to rafie if your'e reading this:
good luck for your *ahem*
may you get through it
and sweep the judges off their feet :D
do it like archuleta or cook if you prefer :)

hahaz :>

i'm off!

and caspian ish sho darn hot.
i'm not betraying YOU in anyway :D

2008-06-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

my first edited skin..
:D

2008-06-07T12:48:00.002+08:00

hmphss...

well...i'm like rotting here at home....
I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i.miss.everyone.

tsk.

i've just completed writing 7 chapters of bio notes...
now i'm on the 8th...all about human transport system....prothrombin..phagocytes...goes on and on....

well its getting interesting anyway....i love human biology!

hmph.

i was just thinking about life again last night..
tears flowed....after realising some stuff...
life seems unfair to me sometimes.
i do good stuff to people.
have i got anything in return?
perhaps maybe.
or even not.

i advise people on their relationships.
have i even got someone to share my heart with?
a simple no answers it all.

why.is.life.biased?
or is it me not understanding myself?

i smile on the outside
but have you ever thought how i felt inside?

2008-06-04T12:43:00.002+08:00

woo!
i'm back!

well yeah..have not been updating for some time....due to my oh-so-loving-mum -_-"

had combined choir practice at pasir ris cres sec.
SUPER FUN.
ah well....dancing my good ass off and letting loose my horny-ness..hehe!

not gonna have choir practice until the 18th....wth.

BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sheesh.....currently doing some revision....pffttt...

just thinking about life....
how i've come so far..
i'm gonna be 16 soon...
and i'm not having a boyfriend(i'm saying this for the billionth time )
it's like i was just pri.1 kid yesterday...
time really flies...

well i'll just hope for the best...
for a special someone to brighten my everydays....

haish.. :/

2008-05-24T18:47:00.006+08:00

my favourite singer!

cecilia bartoli!

2008-05-24T18:47:00.003+08:00

finally...

holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah....can't wait for the next choir practice!!!

haha!

I MISS YOU RAFIE!!!!

HEHE....

oh well.....its kinda boring actually...argh....

well!
i must start revising!!!

no more F9's for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-14T20:20:00.004+08:00

yeah well......

failed most of my subjects.....

passed three.

what's life anyway?

hopeless.
"you're future is gone".
"i dunno about you any more".

to tell the fact.
i'm not a failure mom.

i'm in fact beyond better than myself MOM.

haven't i made it to 3exp despite your naggings?

i still proved it you know.

so why say i'm hopeless?

when eventually i'm going to go 4exp and do my damn 'o' levels?

2008-05-14T20:20:00.003+08:00

few words to say today.......

YOU are doing it again........

?

you're still making me smile for no reason

2008-05-11T15:05:00.001+08:00

finally! exams are like so freakin' over!!!! :D

haish.....

well,hopefully A's come in my results....
half of the exams were quite tricky.....enough to make us even more a fool..

oh well......not bothered until the papers come back...

lets look at the brighter side!

tomorrow i'm gonna dine at pizza hut....part of the MYE celebration :)

well...it seems that my personal life is getting meaningless.
should i wait any longer or just give up?
i've been doing this for 3 years.and its getting really sickening.
i'm practically waiting for no reason.

any solutions on what can i do to save myself from this trauma?
GOD knows.

i've waited long for you.
is it too hard for you to understand?